又有感了。

每次写东西都要等到相隔很久的时间。
每次都希望如果心有所想，就写在心里， 但却发现当回首的时候总是什么都不记得。
在书上看到， 每次心怀信心总比心怀忧伤要好。 是的。
今天我做了一个决定。
一定不要因为身边有了亲近的人而放弃自我独立。 一定不要因为亲近而表达不清自己的想法。
上帝派来的使者都是有他的用意， 要增添我们自身的技能而不是要让它消减。
忘记了以前我的行动力是不是比现在还要惊魂。
所以为了忘却的纪念。
加油努力吧， 女强人。

Long time no see.

I miss you all. It has been a long time never see.
Somehow, time flies.
I remember the first time i came to FA, that was in paya laber. I loved that.Thanks for all your care.
Until now I couldnt sleep, cos i just watch a tagged video in my facebook again. still smile when every time i watch it. Not because of song, but because of the fellowship.
I thank GOD arrange a party for us.
Mummy G had ever told me that: someone comes for a season, someone comes for a reason, while someone comes and will stay.
that`s a fact n hard to face.
I felt like i ve turned away from all the friends. however, you are all in my heart and cant run away.
To friends. Cheers. No matter where you are .

小日子。

20岁。想爸爸。打电话。最天使。这就是我。
零散。消魂。迫切。噩梦。他们还在。
不曾否认过童话的美好，只是伤感为何现实远离童话。

机票。房子。玫瑰花瓣。
家这个概念仍然举足轻重。
我好想赶快拥抱世界，拥抱大地。在深海里飞，直到慢慢搁浅。
但是当仔细看着花从绽放到凋零的整个过程。
每个细节都不可或缺。
A SENSE OF BELONGING.
A BEAUTY OF LOSS.
A PAIN OF MATURITY.
A BREATH OF ALIVE.
A STRIVE OF CONQUER.
A POWER OF LOVE.
A FEAR OF NO ONE.
A KISS OF INNOCENT.
A STEP OF NEXT LEVEL.
如果人每天都不说废话，那么就等于每天都不说话。所以我的话很多。
20 岁的918时候。妈妈姐了婚。
20岁的学校，1对情侣卧轨自杀。
20岁的年华，不再傻。 小日子，天天放烟花。

batam hoho

A letter to dad.

daddy:

I forget when is the last time you said:"you are the prettyest in the world because you are my daughter" Now you only said "what is the matter with your body shape"

Daddy, I dont know all the bad emotion is whether from you or me..or both of us..

Why u dont listen to me and even dont believe me....I m yours, remember?

I have grown up and started to have my own life just like when you start to persue your dream when you were young ...

Our conversation becames going through emotions. How come...

I was so sad when you judge my looks like you judge your staff....or a normal girl ...

and I was so angry that u asked me to get marry soon after graduation.. If you are in a hurry and dont wanna support me here, I can disappear from u soon, or even now.seriously...

To be frank, your objective makes my heart broken.

Even my best friend said no matter what I did or How I look like or What color is my hair..they will still love me.

You ..are a shape to me .Darker and remoter with the time passing by..This is how I feel. I wish this is not the truth.

Can u feel that I ve prayed for u day by day?

Can not imagine you hang up my phone so fast.

Can not complain you have spend less time with me.

Can only love you because you are my father.

Can only understand all your stress...

Can only say sorry baba, I m not mature enough for being your daughter.

Can only say it is me can not tolerant you and your woman.....

U know what ? the chinese herb you sent to me almost burn my house...who`s stupid advise to ask u sent that to me. All those superstitions herbs with that stupid burning machine has almost killed me and my housemates.

Why you listen to all the bosh that woman told you but never listen to mine?

I can only pray that may Satan get away from u !!!!!!

Hope all this is just my imagination. Peace.

FORGET ABOUT IT. AND THAT`S IT.

GET A NEW ONE TO TAKE PLACE AND SHOW HIM I M FINE WITHOUT HIM.

GIRLS CAN TAKE OVER HALF OF THE SKY.

WHEN THERE IS NOTHING AT ALL.

WHEN U FEEL THINGS ARE DISGUSTING AND RASTY.

JUST DO LIVE A BETTER LIFE INSTEAD OF STUCK IN AN EMOTINAL LOCK.

THAT IS THE THING.

bluh bluh bluh.

my eclipse totally had no respond for today`s module .. i must uninstall everything and install again. stilll ... must reformat my laptop tomorrow.
the day be4 yesterday . 2 ppl got swan flu have been detected and quanratined.
i remove xiaonei, web for good. for resisting temptation and the source of rumour..
and baught a baskets set with 3 in it.

i have been feeling cold and dizzy for a few days. but i believe my spirit with God`s care will not be able to be attacked ....